He LOST her in Glorietta...

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Have you read the email about "Losing his wife because of Gorietta Bombing"? Actually, wala akong nareceive na ganitong email... nabasa ko lang siya sa dyaryo nung napublish last October 30, and sobrang naapektuhan talaga ako after reading this...

It only began as a formal letter by a man to his employers, asking time to grieve for a loved one. Hindi natin talaga masasabi kung kelan na mageend yung life na pinahiram sa atin ni God, kaya we should make the most out of it. Isa sa mga namatay sa explosion sa Glorietta yung asawa ni Carlo. His intention in coming up with this letter is to help him pray for the soul of her wife. He felt the she is still in the dark.

Here's the letter... Just sharing it with you guyz to appreciate life more.

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Email by Carlo Cruz ( I have copied it in Inquirer Libre since I haven't received the email yet!! )

GOOD Day, everyone.

I wish I were writing under different circumstances.

I would like to inform you that my wife, Leslie Cruz, was one of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 mall bombing in Makati City, Philippines.

She was supposed to have minor outpatient surgery at Makati Medical Center (MMC) at 2:30 p.m., I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there.

We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parent's place in Quezon City for babysitting at around 10 a.m. We then proceeded to Makati and got there at 12:30 p.m.

Since she had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she wanted to move around and listen to some music while I grabbed a bite to eat.

We parked at the basement of Park Square 2, and headed for Glorietta 2 entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator -- she turned right toward Filbar's while I went toward the restaurants.

That was the last time I would see her.

MY HEART DROPPED

At around 1:20 p.m., she called me so that we could meet at the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her appointment.

As I made my way there from Glorietta 1 through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn the corner, I heard two deep thumps and the shock wave from the blast hit me.

>At that momen, my heart dropped as I knew that the origin of the blast was the same place where we were supposed to meet.

I tried getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too much and it was I was staring at a white wall.

I still tried to convince myself that she was able to make it out, and that her not responding to my calls on her mobile phone only meant that she had dropped it in the confusion.

It was only after six hours of searching, from MMC to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again to MMC, with the help of all the people I could get hold of, that I was able to get confirmation on the state of my wife.

My dad and my uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's appearance to another group of doctors.

I saw in the eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then brought me to a small examination room.

It was only through a digital camera that I was able to confirm (and deny) that she was indeed gone.

I SHOULD HAVE...

I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner. I should have run instead of done brisk walk. I should not have chosen to park where I did. I should have braved the dust and went to the blast site.

I should have...

Today's the fourth day. It is still terribly difficult to breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source of strength, your best friend, doesn't lie beside you on your bed.

My deepest worry is when Amber starts asking for her mama.

I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the details of how her mother died, but more importantly, I would like to raise her as how her mother lived -- a loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring and nurturing.

She had always cared for her family and friends, and sacrificed her career to be a full time mom and homemaker.

CHERISH EACH MOMENT

Like all other couples, we had our ups and downs -- none of which I regret going through. The sweet is never as sweet without the sour.

For almost four years of marriage, we had finally hit our balance in life, only for it to be taken away in an instant.

I have no regrets about our marriage. She loved me, and Amber beyond her capacity. I will always love her.

It is my first time to write to an e-group as I've lurked and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want now is for each of the couples here to cherish each moment that we spend with our loved ones.

Pretty simple say, very easy to take for granted.

Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to ask you to please include Leslie in them until her 40th day, so that the path to God's kingdom will be well-lit and will no longer be in the dark.

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haayyy... Life is too short, we can't tell kung hanggang kelan lang tau mabubuhay sa mundo. The sad point with what happened with Leslie and Carlo, nag-end ung love story nila ng ganun-ganun nalang... Parang tinapos ng trahedya ung buhay ni Leslie na masaya at maganda... Ang tragic ng pagkamatay nya, wala naman cguro sa ating naghangad mamatay sa ganoong paraan db??!!! Yeah, we all know na we will going to die, but we still hope and pray na sana hindi sa ganoong paraan, hindi naman din natin masasabi kng pano kaya prayers and hope nlng panghahawakan natin. But what can we do??? It is her destiny... Time nya na talaga cguro, maybe, she's already done with her mission in life. Let's just think now that malapit na malapit na yung time na makapiling ni Leslie si God and I know mas magiging happy siya dun. She will be in God's arms sooner... that would be the dream of all, to end up in God's arm.

i'm sO pRoud of yOu guyz...

Sunday, October 28, 2007

i saLute aLL my fRiends who passed the 2007 boaRd exams... guyz, i'm so pRoud of you!!! gaLing nyo, d best kayo!! azteehgg ang mga kaiBigan ko... whatever happens guyz, i Love you aLL and we will stiLL be fRiends forever...

THE NEW LICENSED NURSES:
1. Albert M. Alipio => one of the fRiendships member,. a fRiend since gRade 4
2. Charity Anne P. Ngoho => one of the genRizheL beLeHori member, my fRiend since 1st hs
3. Jeselle Joy Redondo => hindi kami nagkaroon ng time for bonding, but she's still part of rizaL's success stories.

THE NEW LICENSED TEACHERS:
1. Angelica A. Eballes => my beStfRiend til' the eNd.aLso 1 of the genRizheL beleHori member
2. Kareen R. Benny => one of the genRizheL beLeHori member, a fRiend since grade 5
3. Aurora Cariaga => my friEnd since kinder... she's my classmate since kinder til' high schooL.
4. Emily F. Bacay => aLso one of my deaRest fRiend
5. Krisel Carinan => a fRiend, though we don't have lot's of bonding momentz...hehehe
6. Christine B. De Leon => wooow.. my classmate and friend since elementary.

anywayz, aside from the boaRd passers... i just want also to commend my other fRiends who did not need to take the boaRd exams, but are aLso successfuL in their own chosen caReers...

THE MANAGERS:
1. Catherine A. Eulogio => KFC Manager, member of fRiendsHip, my fRiend since gRade 2
2. Charvy P. Pelias => KFC Manager, member of fRiendsHip, my fRiend since gRade 4
3. Cherrylyn R. Zafe => Jollibee Manager, member oF MEMC, a fRiend since gRade 6
4. Melchor B. Alim => Manager of 1 of the Biggest Companies in LonDon, a fRiend since kinder

THE PROGRAMMER:
1. Ireneo D. Gallaza Jr. => my love, my bezfRiend, my boyfRiend...he's been my fRiend since gRade 2.

I'm reaLLy soRRy guyz (particuLarLy with my other riZaL fRiends) for not mentioning other's names... it's not just i'm not pRoud of yOu, but i don't have any inFo/latest news about some of you... don't worry, as soon as I heard the latest about you, i'll edit this bLog immediately... hehehehe... THANKS FOR EVERYTHING GUYZ!! thanks for the memories that we shared for almost 9 years, and for some, 11 years (ung mga classmates ko ba since kinder!!, tagal din ng pagsasama natin). I will never ever forget you! LOVEYOUALL!!...

the fRiend i wiLL foRget

Friday, October 19, 2007

Sa buong buhay ko, medyo marami na rin akong nakabanggaan, actually hindi naman ganun karami, mga 4 lang naman... pero sa apat na un, 3 sa knila ang hindi ko nakalimutan ung katotohanan na they are still my friends kahit na hindi kami in good terms, alam ko kasi in right time, maayos din ang problema... Hindi ko magawang magbitaw ng salitang alam kong lalong magpapagulo sa sitwasyon, i can't even tell them na this will be the goodbye forever and the end of our friendship kasi i know time will come na pagsisihan ko yung mga sasabihin ko na un, at lalong ayaw kong mag-end up ung matagal na pinagsamahan dahil lang sa isang away na kung tutuusin ay parang away bata lamang!... pero i don't know, this recent fight na actually not a physical fight but an oral fight, parang ganun kadali sa akin na sabihing "Well, this is the end of our friendship". At take note, before, since ayaw ko talaga ng away dahil mabigat sa dibdib na may nakakasamaan ka ng loob, after the argument, umiiyak talaga ko dahil di ko na kaya!! pero itong huli, parang wala lang!!! Before din, kahit alam kong pareho kaming responsible or may kasalanan sa away, binababaan ko ang pride ko just settle things up. Pero ngaun, I feel na wala ng pag-asang bumaba ung pride na un... alam kong dapat d nawawalan ng pag-asa, pero ngaun kasi parang ako na nga ung nagtatry na tumulong, ako pa ung napasama...

Sa mga past arguments ko with friends, I learned to be stronger... na di dapat nagpapaapi, dapat kng alam mong nasa tama ka, fight for your right, ipaglaban mo ang sarili mo, wag mong hayaang tinatapak-tapakan lang ang pagkatao mo! Pero I learned din na minsan kailangan ibaba ang pride para mabalik yung friendship na hinahanap mo. I can tell na sa latest na argument ko, natuto din naman siguro ako. Sabi nya kasi, sa way kong magsalita parang alam ko na ang lahat... Siguro nga ganun ako at hindi ko yun nakita sa sarili ko, at ang mahirap dun yun nga ung kinakaayawan ko sa isang tao e! Tapos ngaun cnsabing ako ang ganun!! I hate myself for that. Pero alam kong kaya kong alisin yung ugaling ganun, di man maalis atleast mabawasan db???, dahil ayaw kong maging attitude ko yung attitude na ayaw ko sa ibang tao. Kung tototally aalisin ko yun sa sarili ko, I'll change myself not because of him but it is the desire of my heart... Babaguhin ko ang sarili ko para sa ikabubuti ko at para sa sarili ko hindi para sa kanya at di dahil sinabi ng ibang baguhin ko!!

But wait, yung statement nya, that's a prejudice, db?? Yung sabihing "alam ko na kasi ang lahat" ... Because we can't judge a person on the way he/she talks. Sabi nga, "We make an impression on what we say, but we make a name on what we do!"

Sa oral fight na ito, siguro kaya ganun nalang sa akin kadali magbitiw ng di magandang salita kasi I'm just trying to help but ako pa yung napasama. Sa lhat naman ng tinutulungan ko, ngayon lang ako namisinterpret... At ang nakakatuwa pa dun misleading yung mga statements nya. Una nyang sabi nung may problema sya apat lang ang nagbigay ng comment sa kanya kng ano dapat gawin at sa apat na yun isa daw ako at kahit pare-pareho daw kami ng sinasabi magkakaiba daw kami ng pagkakasabi. Then, nung nagrespond ako na depende yun kung pano inintindi, ang sabi ba naman ang galing ko daw dahil out of 5 ako daw yung di nya naintindihan dun!! Hahaha, una ako yung isa sa pinakinggan, next statement ako di naintindihan.. Ano ba tama chong???

Sa lahat ng arguments ko, kahit hindi away, hanggat alam kong may masasabi pa kong tama at sagot sa statement nya, patuloy akong nagsasalita at sumasagot. Pero sa isang tao lang talaga ako natatalo at wala ng maipambato na salita. Sabagay naiintindihan ko un dati kong friend (na hindi na ngayon), kasi pag nakakasagutan ko yung friend kong lagi akong talo, contrary na rin yung mga sinasabi ko kaya nahuhuli nya kong wala ng direksyon yung mga sinasabi, at ganun ko nahuli yung latest kong kaaway, wala ng direksyon, paiba-iba na ng statement.

Ang mahirap kasi sa tao, not in general, but more specifically sa knya, pag may nagbibigay ng comment sa kanya ang hinahanap nyang words is yung gusto nya lang marinig, at pag may sumalungat sa kung anong gusto nyang marinig, that's the time na tumataas ang temper nya. Haler!! So, dapat pala bago magcomment yung mga tao sa knya itanong muna sa kanya kung ano gusto nyang marinig para matutuwa xa sa sasabihin nung magcocomment.. Minsan kasi ang hirap tanggapin sa sarili na ganun ka pag sinabi ng iba, minsan nga alam natin na hindi tau ung sinasabi na ganun kasi we know ourselves, pero minsan let's accept the fact na may sinasabi ang iba na hindi natin nakikita sa sarili natin kasi we're more focus on other things. So if ever na di maganda ung nkita ng ibang tao sa atin, don't change yung buong pagkatao mo, just try to limit yung weakness na un, medyo bawasan and eventually malalaman mo din na you have regenerated to a new you ng hindi mo pinilit ang sarili mo. L
et's try not to change ourselves but rather develop and improve ourselves for better. Ito tau e, kung magbabago man tayo or we totally change ourselves, good ang outcome if ginagawa natin ito para sa ating sarili at hindi para sa ibang tao or dahil sinabi ng ibang tao na gawin natin ito.

Yun din cguro ang dahilan kung bakit he always feel that he's "NOBODY" for 21 years now. Hindi nya napapansin yung concern ng iba, hindi nya alam na for someone, he is "SOMEBODY" (hahah, text ba 'to??). Pero that's true, lahat tau may papel sa mundo, may mission tayo para sa sarili natin at para sa ibang tao. He said hanggang kelan ba sya magiging NOBODY, well, maybe until he realizes na may nagmamahal sa kanya and he become open-minded hindi lang sa sinasabi ng iba kundi sa lahat ng bagay!!!

Well, mga peepz, this is just my opinion! Alam ko there is greater possibility na may iba kayong opinion kasi we see things differently depending on our experience. Kaya kung may comments kayo sa mga sinasabi ko, either same opinion or taliwas or you see things differently based sa situation na 2.. just PM me, hazel_furing@yahoo.com, pede sa YM pede sa friendster, pede sa mail. I'm accepting comments, don't worry guyz, I assure you hindi ako tulad nya na kung ano lang gusto marinig yun lang ang hinahanap sa magcocomment, hindi ako magagalit kung magkaiba man tayo ng comment, pero sana yung totoo lang na opinion yung sabihin nyo ha, wag yung joke joke lang at chinichorva nyo lang ako! I know makakatulong sa akin yung comments nyo. Thanks in advance!! Gusto ko lang makarinig ng side ng iba... mwah...